Maybe it shouldn't be but weight watchers is the most important thing I have going right now as far as conquering the changing of the body. I am a bit obsessed but if that is what it takes for me to be successful then that is how it shall be. I check the WW site about 4000 times a day and count my point so diligently and i have even been excising to earn activity points.
I think I am focusing on body because I am scared of working on the whole spirit and soul part. I know what I need to do. I need to get back to church. But every time I walk into church I get so anxious that i can;t hardly stand it. I will know when and where the right place will be for me in time. I will continue to pray about it and that is the most important thing right now. Prayer. Opening up to God again...I felt like we are strangers right now. I know he will never leave me or forsake me but I have turned my back on him to a certain extent....lost faith. Lost faith that good things happen. That things work out for the better....I have to get that faith back....not that things are perfect but just good.
I am on a journey back to life. I have been away for a while lost in depression,bipolar,and anxiety. I want to improve myself mind, body,and soul.
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